Reopening Original blog

Ive decided to reopen my original blog. Hopefully I will be able to continue this for some time and the rest of my career. Looking back at some of the information in the past is mind boggling im going through the same issues still today with smoking bud and getting in solid work regularly. This blog will really go along any route I feel like talking about on a daily basis. My whole career has been defined by goals I would set almost always failing miserable. I finally have come to the conclusion goals are pointless if you truly enjoy something you will play non-stop and most likely exceed any goal you had in mind along with there being zero chance of failure with no goals.

I have been living in Canada for the past 3 months with really poor results prolly up around 10k. This has really put into perspective how important it is to develop good habits. This blog will not be full of stats like in the past with little comments but will be more focused on aspect that I feel other poker players struggle at along with myself.

The past 3 years have been mostly filled with complacency on all levels. The biggest being a year ago when I made the switch to Turbo SnG's from a more HU background. I attribute this to one thing FEAR I have always been extremely fearful in my career no matter what I was playing be it 1k hu sngs or 2 dollar 180s. Fear has a weird way of messing with your head what used to be so simplistic is now ripping your insides. I believe I have always been petrified of failure I believe this has been fed throughout my life beginning with sports into college and now poker. I recently read and fully agree humans are not afraid of failure but we are afraid of success. Ive decided to start trying to improve my game which i imagine is at its low point in my career. Some of the things im working on is watching training videos,getting hem/pokerstove/pokerwiz, reading jared's new mental book, and navigating through the forums for info. I honestly cant wait to start dissecting my game I havent really tried to learn anything new always saying I just click button and poker is ridiculous but, to finally get a mathematical background on the game and current tenancies hopefully will build a fire in my soul that hasnt been there for 3 years.

Kyle

Vegas

Just got back from Vegas was a pretty solid trip somehow i spent around 1.8k in 4 days which is pathetic. I played the most live poker I think ive ever played with suprisingly good results I won about 2k between 2/5-5/10 mainly at the bellagio. It would of been around 3-4k but, one night after heavily drinking I had a timing tell and my first night I called an all in on a 478K10 board with AQ against his 42. I saw a couple shows Bellagio's O which was the coolest thing ive ever seen, La Rive which blew hardcore from what lil I remember from that night, and Lance Burton magic show suprisingly wasnt too bad. I had one intresting night my last night where I went to La Rive. I headed to the Wynn a couple hours earlier at the Wynn on the way stopping at each Margrita stand or drink stand ordering a drink. I think i spent around 50-60 by the time I made it to the Wynn. At the Wynn I had trouble getting a waitress to continue to comeback to me so I sat at 1/3 and preceeded to order double margritas. After 3-4 of these I realized I was 15 minutes late to La Rive so I chugged my drink and ran to the show. Considering I got there late they wouldnt let me sit till the first act was over so I went and got another drink at the concession stand I ordered a margritta the lady filled up 3 cups and gave them to me confused I asked did I order 3 and she nodded so I paid her. I finally got to take my seat after about midway through all memmory of the night goes out the window. All I know is I woke up to security knocking on my door and 17 missed calls from my parents trying to get me up for my plane. As I struggled to function I ran to get a cab (leaving several items behind in the room). I then realized I was 500 bucks shorter in my wallet but, suprisingly a bag of pot instead. I made my flight with a few minutes to spare and headed home feeling like death.
Heres the stats for this year according to the scope. Yet agian I am getting no volume probably due to school and getting hooked on college basketball.

New Year

Well, originally I was gonna try for SNE but, I highly doubt this will happen mainly cause I dont want to play poker to that extreme. Over the past 20 days ive been playing only a 1-3 hrs a day with averaging 500 day which ive come to realize makes my life so much more fulfilling. I have finished my 3rd session of mental coaching which is starting to help significantly. The main thing im looking to do is improve my MTT skills to the point where I feel comfortable playing live events and high stakes online events. School is going to start up in a week which blows. Below are my goals for 2009.

Goals 2009-
-Play several live events
-Make several final tables online
-make 200-250k online
-purchase a house in Nov-Dec

update

well, not much poker relate news been playin a lil with decent profits. I have recently been taking on coaching lessons for the mental aspect of poker. This is working very well and working out on 3-4 times a week. So all in all things are good im gonna start up strong blogging next year. gl

Update

Well, last couple weeks have been decent. I am having a good last two days up 3k both days. I think that I am gonna prolly be done posting till the end of the year at that point I am going to create a new blog or chart progress in this blog. My goal will be to reach SuperNova Elite which will be a bitch but, I am starting to train for it. I am workingout now, eating healthier, and not partying nearly as much in preparation for a good start.Last week I put in some money on FTP and have been trying to get used to playing there (My stats are on bottom so far). I will do a couple quick updates in December but, for strategy and examples of hands there prolly will be not many. GL everyone

Username: Nofear47
Games played: 53
Avg Profit: $135
Avg roi: 30%
Total Profit: $7,152

quick update

Thursday ended up turning 2k and yesterday 1.5k which is solid because both days were 5-10 game days. It seems I have gone back to my usually playing low low volume and just hanging out wiht friends all day. Hopefully this begins to stop once school gets out for winter break. Today should be intresting im playing at the Chicago Charitable Games which has 100 buck hu sngs live which should be fun. Decided to get some nice rims for my benz so thats another plus for the week. This week has been solid only put in around 9 hrs and up 6k cant really ask for more. I havent played any games today but, hopefully I will get a couple in tonight and turn a nice profit. Will try and put some hands into this blog tonite.

GL all

update

Well, I havent been playing much poker this week prolly 5-6 hrs won about 2k monday and 1.1k today didnt play tuesday and wednesday (1-2 games a day). Tuesday saw Seth Rogers movie about making a porno sucked. Wednesday was tight we played golf (12 holes) for 25 bucks brough a 24 pack and some blunts. We had the course practically to are selfs so it was sick. Just got back from casino for 2 hrs playing 20/40 limit (highest shit they got) made like 350 which isnt bad. It was fun building towers with the chips mainly casue i bought in for like 1.5k. Other then that not much has been going down. If anyone has anyting they want me to start adding to the blog lemme know. Don't really wanna go through trying to find some complex hands so heres a hand earlier today vs Venessa Rousso.Props to her for playing it well.

PokerStars Game #21807090316: Tournament #118776397,
$300+$15 Hold'em No Limit -
Match Round I, Level I (10/20) - 2008/11/06 12:53:33 ETTable '118776397 1' 2-max
Seat #2 is the buttonSeat 1: LadyMaverick (1320 in chips)
Seat 2: nofear47 (1680 in chips) n
ofear47: posts small blind 10
LadyMaverick: posts big blind 20
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to nofear47 [Kh 6h]
nofear47: raises 20 to 40
LadyMaverick: raises 100 to 140
nofear47: calls 100
*** FLOP *** [7h 8c 5h]
LadyMaverick: bets 200
nofear47: raises 360 to 560
LadyMaverick: raises 620 to 1180 and is all-in
nofear47 said, "gl"
nofear47: calls 620
*** TURN *** [7h 8c 5h] [Js]
*** RIVER *** [7h 8c 5h Js] [Ah]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
LadyMaverick: shows [3h 3c] (a pair of Threes)
nofear47: shows [Kh 6h] (a flush, Ace high)
nofear47 said, "gg agian?"
nofear47 collected 2640 from pot