Reopening Original blog

Ive decided to reopen my original blog. Hopefully I will be able to continue this for some time and the rest of my career. Looking back at some of the information in the past is mind boggling im going through the same issues still today with smoking bud and getting in solid work regularly. This blog will really go along any route I feel like talking about on a daily basis. My whole career has been defined by goals I would set almost always failing miserable. I finally have come to the conclusion goals are pointless if you truly enjoy something you will play non-stop and most likely exceed any goal you had in mind along with there being zero chance of failure with no goals.

I have been living in Canada for the past 3 months with really poor results prolly up around 10k. This has really put into perspective how important it is to develop good habits. This blog will not be full of stats like in the past with little comments but will be more focused on aspect that I feel other poker players struggle at along with myself.

The past 3 years have been mostly filled with complacency on all levels. The biggest being a year ago when I made the switch to Turbo SnG's from a more HU background. I attribute this to one thing FEAR I have always been extremely fearful in my career no matter what I was playing be it 1k hu sngs or 2 dollar 180s. Fear has a weird way of messing with your head what used to be so simplistic is now ripping your insides. I believe I have always been petrified of failure I believe this has been fed throughout my life beginning with sports into college and now poker. I recently read and fully agree humans are not afraid of failure but we are afraid of success. Ive decided to start trying to improve my game which i imagine is at its low point in my career. Some of the things im working on is watching training videos,getting hem/pokerstove/pokerwiz, reading jared's new mental book, and navigating through the forums for info. I honestly cant wait to start dissecting my game I havent really tried to learn anything new always saying I just click button and poker is ridiculous but, to finally get a mathematical background on the game and current tenancies hopefully will build a fire in my soul that hasnt been there for 3 years.

Kyle